I've got good news and bad news. Which one do you want to hear first?

Good one?

Okay.

The good news is...

I've got $$$ from working :D

I got the monehhhh monehhh.

But of course it isn't really a lot.

Just enough to make yourself feel richer and enough to treat those whom I want to treat.

And the bad news is...

I'm not really that into my job now.

Yes it gives me reasonably good pay and all but.. I find it a burden to go to work nowadays.

Almost everyday under the hot sun,

Dealing with noisy and rowdy kids,

Dealing with customer complains that their child is not engaged in the kids club activities when they don't even fucking realize how hard is it to engage them in the activities that we have prepared for them

and I can't seem to memorise the kayak, bikes and pedal boat rates and extension for various departments. I'm pretty damn sure my manager gets annoyed when she has to be the one to tell the guest the rates for renting the boats.

I can't deal with noise and the inability to help others everyday. It's gonna kill me sooner or later.

Or maybe I should just take a step back and just relax since I'm forever setting milky-way-high standards and not being able to uphold that standard.

So for now, I guess my only motivation to go work is to chat with Estha whenever I can even though she sort of bullies me sometimes and she comments that I look very blur all the time. Well I have my reasons to look blur most of the time and I don't like to reveal my reason to people I'm still not very familiar with.

She's a really interesting person to talk to and she's so much more "planned out" than me who is just drifting about, enjoying everyday like it's my last day alive.

She popped by during her break to check out the kids? And maybe to chat with me and my friend also. So I happened to be alone when she came and we decided to chat around while we cut some pamphlets together. Through the chat, I found out that she

1) plans to go study abroad (or work abroad, I don't know) in 2 years time

2) doesn't have a very good liquor level

3) won't want to get any boyfriends while studying abroad

4) plans to be a single mum

But I can tell you, the chances of 3 and 4 being broken is a little high.

I mean, when you're studying overseas, what are the chances that you will not be interacting with guys?

And yes she plans to be a single mum. Is that even possible? Balancing your career and your kid at the same time? I don't know. She says that she wants to be a single mum because you'll never know when your other half is going to cheat on you and this can save you from potential heartbreaks, which is a good point since I admit that not everyone will stay loyal or squeaky clean all the time. HOWEVER, there are exceptions as there are people who are fiercely loyal to their other half, just that they're rare or probably ugly like me >.>

Was joking with her about what if the sperm bank gave her the wrong sperm. We laughed and she said "Nonono, I will double confirm with them. You don't say this kind of unlucky thing" and she slapped my arms repeatedly. Ughh x.x She slaps really hard for a girl.

Alright I'll end my post now. Need to wake up at 6am tomorrow. Sighhhh.

All the best for you.